There is no other way to express how I feel right now.

I am really really really upset. Period.

Another revelation

"You need to love yourself for someone else to love you for who you are."

It is getting better...

and I do believe that is true. In the last 3 days, I have received nothing but good news. They are as follows:-

1. Monday - I received a letter from the Immigration Checkpoint Authority informing that my Singaporean PR application has been successful. Yippee!

2. Tuesday - I got promoted! I was surprised by that, given that I have only been with the company for about 9 months. Well done, Zan Li!

3. Wednesday - I received an email from one of the companies that I applied to for a job, indicating their interest. Hmmmm....what to make of that?

In the meantime, I am just sitting in my favourite chair, waiting for more good news to come my way so that I can list it below no.3.

This is all beyond me.

:))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm right here..waiting for you...

Taylor Swift - LOVE STORY

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Oh, oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town,

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

Oh, oh. Oh, oh.

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

I have faith that we will one day meet and connect on all levels. For now, I am savouring every sweet moment that life proffers me.

Quid Pro Quo...maybe?

Do you honestly believe that we are born to give others without asking for anything in return? That we possess charitable hearts and are abound with sincere generosity? Most people would say that we benefit others so that we can benefit ourselves - that we are in it for the money, success and recognition. Yes, that may be true but we can only help others if we can help ourselves. Therefore, by offering our services to others, we will gain both material wealth and long-lasting joy. This kind of happiness is beyond description. There are no befitting words for this experience. Although it may appear that we are helping others for our own benefit, but if it brings us self-gratification as well, why not? Don't let others judge us for what we do. The only judge we have to face is ourselves. Ask yourself first: "Will this give rise to a positive outcome or cause a detriment to you and the other party?" So what if we exploit the other person? Well then, until the day we regret taking advantage of the poor souls, that relentless guilty feeling will keep following us, even till the day we pass on.   

Moving forward.

I take my previous entry back. My life is perfect as it is. No attachment. Free from heartache. Feels nice to be able to breathe in the blissful air and savour that moment of utter freedom - freedom from emotional attachment. I only need to please one person and that is myself. It's just me-time, for now.

You best believe, best believe I'm yours.

"...I won't hesitate no more, no more,

It cannot wait, I'm yours."

If he only knew how I feel about him right now and actually reciprocate. Then life would be like the perfect picture hanging on the bare whitewashed wall in my room.